For the last five years, I’ve been writing in a laptop. Mostly logging, and sometimes, lately more often than not, it’s been topic oriented. In these past five years, I’ve managed to write well over a million words. I considered it mostly practice, so that i could do this one day. Some folks just want to write and do so, some do it methodically, clearly needlessly complicating this that otherwise would be easy.
The thing is, I wanted to come up with a way I write before I started writing publicly. I still have very little to say about much of anything, I do find out. But writing, I can do. This practice of mine, started mostly on a spreadsheet. I played around with and made different formats of spreadsheets so as to organize my writing over the years. So much so that i don’t much remember my first attempts at writing. I think I had actually tried to self-host my own website on a server running in my apartment at the time.
I found out shortly that these things require daily maintenance, sometimes. Regardless, they do need a skilled hand at selecting the right setup so that the site be able to endure throughout the time it’s intended to run. So my intention is to run the thing for at least a few years. I managed a few months, before a bad update lead me to a site that no longer worked.
Further updates just led me to a local site that also was largely unresponsive, until i just took the whole thing down and continued the process inside of some spreadsheets. I still have a copy of that old hard drive with my first attempts at writing much of anything in particular and I believe it’s labeled backup August 2018 or something like that. So after 4 long years of writing hundreds and hundreds of thousands of words to largely nobody that would ever read them, for the sake of trying to organize the way I was thinking, I decided that there was not going to be a good way for me to organize much all of anything and I should just go ahead and write on the internet instead sometimes too.
I can’t really say it’s been life changing, so much as I can say that if I don’t spend a few nights a week writing and logging I tend to forget quite a few things and just go on about my life as if these things never really occurred to me in the first place. I suppose a bunch of folks are like that out there, ideas coming to them and leaving them as they please. Well not this time, only some of them slip away from me now! Interesting to note here is that since creating this website a week or two ago, I’ve already written over 15k words, elsewhere. Not that I’m necessarily aiming for a word count, I just recall so many times struggling night after night back in school to even come up with sometimes 200 of them at times. They seem to just fall out of my head at this point. Granted, back in school the 200 words were likely of higher quality, the point I’m making here to nobody in particular is that it’s not a competition to make the largest amount of words .. is all.
Anyways, in my logs I have found that there are often a number of things that I can recall in reasonably good detail by going through situations again mentally at the end of the day. Reasonably good detail being whatever happens to come to mind at the time and I suppose at this age I’m more likely to spend 1000 words saying nothing about anything in particular than I am 50 words giving a good description that’s to the point.
The very next time I read a blog, Hopefully it does not disappoint me just as much as this particular one. I mean, I know it was my choice to read, however I genuinely thought you would probably have something interesting to talk about. All I hear is a bunch of whining about something you could fix if you werent too busy looking for attention.
Aw man my ego hurts